The obituary notice of Julie CARTER

Miss you mum 💔 i will forever look up every night and think to myself what a beautiful angel you are, i really miss you but i know you’re looking down on us as we are looking up at you 💔😕 love you forever and always goodnight mum xxx ~ cerys xxx

Well Julie, it's a year today since you left us, at times it seems like only yesterday, at other times it's an age ago. So much has happened in the twlve months that have elapsed, some things that would give you pleasure, [the enjoyment that Sam and Cerys experienced on their holiday in Zante.] The development in their personalities, [the gentleness that Sam displays, and the slightly more feisty attitude of Cerys.] qualities that they have both inherited from you, plus the the loving caring nature that you had in abundance, [ in your beautiful children, you will live on.] Some things have occurred that would cause you disappointment, but this site is not the place to discuss them. As a family Julie, we shared the highs and lows of your life, there were tears of joy at your birth, tears of anger and disappointment, at each of the four failed I.V.F. attempts, more tears of joy at the natural births of Sam and Cerys, and finally tears of grief at your passing. We could not have asked for a better daughter or sister, you were always on hand if we were in need , like any family we had our moments, but that's all they were, moments in a lifetime. Our regret is that we did not say I love you as often as we should, but we know that you were aware of our love for you, as we were aware of the love you had for us. I will close now Julie, by saying what we say every night, "Goonight and God Bless", all our love forever, until we meet again . "Over the Rainbow" All our love Mum, Dad, Alan, Nicki, Sam, and Cerys. xxx

I am a good friend of Nikki's, Julie's sister. I know all the family pretty well. My last memory of Julie was seeing her in Primark in Southport last October; she was with Paul, Cerys and Laura. Cery's was hungry but wouldn't eat what Julie had brought for her, just kids for ya. I was with Tony, Alex and Jake was about 6 weeks old then. We were all just gabbing but you could see that there was something bothering her but didn t think much about it . It was a couple of day later when Nikki mentioned that Julie was going to go to the doctors as she had a pain in her back. Nikki was really worried but I tried to reassure her as you do that it'll all be ok. A couple of weeks later I was walking home from the school with Alex and Jake when I heard someone shouting me...It was Nikki. I just knew it was bad news from the way she was looking at me. It was then that Nikki told me the most horrific news that I'd heard in years...My first response was the poor kids and then what about Jon and Laura. Then Nikki, Alan and I just hugged and cried in Sandy Lane. 6 weeks later she had fell asleep. What a brave lady, I can only say that my heart is with all the family...I couldn't even begin to imagine how something like this would feel and the impact is has on your own lives. Julie was a loving and caring person and I know that Nikki really misses you.... Life is cruel!! Sleep Well, Thinking of the Family for tomorrow s anniversary!

dear julie myself and our two wonderful children sam and your little angel cerys will never forget you we talk about you every day and still say good night every night as the children and myself like doing. you were one amazing woman and gave so much strengh to all the family,it will be our 1st year without you on saturday how the year has gone so fast. i remember our last day togeather you kept that brave face on for me and every time i looked at you , you just smiled and said it will be ok dont worry about me god how brave you were, sam and cerys will never forget their brave and wonderful mummy, i will not let this happen and i promise you i will make them so proud of you their most amazing mummy . God Bless you julie love x x x Paul your son Sam and your little Angel Cerys xxxx

Dear Julie, How can I put into words all the special memories i have of you. You have always been there for me I will never forget all the help and support you gave me during my IVF treatments, even though you and Paul were going through it yourselves you always found the time for me, which shows the type of caring person that you was always thinking of others.I,ll never forget how happy you where when you had Sam and Cerys (your 2 little miracles) they are a credit to you and Paul and you would be so proud of them. Sam has really grown up and is doing a marvellous job looking afters Cerys and Paul. In May Me Jean Anne Marg and Pauline are doing the Race For Life in your memory. I will always have fond memories of you from our holiday when we went to Crete before you settled down with Paul we had such a laugh drinking cocktails and partying every night and us both crying when it was time to go home as we both enjoyed it that much we wanted to stay. You were more then a cousin to me you was like a sister and a close friend all rolled into one. Your bravery and courage that you showed through all what you was going through makes me proud to say you was my cousin you never complained or had any bitterness. I remember our last conversation when you rang me from the hospice And you said that you had had a great life and you had no regrets.What more could you wish for. Goodnight godbless Sue xxxxxxxxxx

My dear friend Julie, the last time I saw you was 31st October in Pat & Keiths house, it was Halloween and Sam & Cerys were having a great time at Cathy & Pauls Halloween Party. I took a lovely photograph of them both dressed up in their Halloween costumes. How could I have ever known I wouldn't see you again? You looked so tired that night and I'm sure you were in a lot of pain even though you said you weren't. I know we didn't see each other as much as we would have liked but I loved our times together we had so many laughs didn't we? Those memories will stay with me forever, when I drive or walk past the Felsted bus stop I can still see you standing there waiting for your lift to work in the mornings. Sam & Cerys are surrounded by people that love them so much and are a credit to you & Paul. Sam decorated the Christmans Tree just as you would have done, it looked so beautiful dressed in Purple when Sue & I called in on Christmas Eve. The house was just as you would have wanted it, full of love & laughter. You would have been so proud of Paul the way he held it together in front of the children so they had a lovely Christmas. You have such a loving caring family who are all supporting each other. Sam is looking after Paul & Cerys on your behalf and is making such a fantastic job of it. What a lovely little boy he is, he knows you are the brightest star in the sky and keeps everyone strong. I will miss you always, rest in peace Julie. Marg xxx

julie.xx i miss you more each day,they say as time goes on it will get better,but i think it will just get more hard for us all, Sam and Cerys are doing fine,they talk about you all the time, and they always look up at night to try and see your star shining so bright in the night sky, i was watching some video of you the other night when Sam and Cerys stopped out at my mums and your mums,god how i cried, it was strange to hear your voice and to see you. we tried so hard to have sam and cerys and i know how proud you were when they arrived into the world and how proud you were to be called mummy,they always put a smile on your face,just to let you know i am doing my best for you them and the rest of the family,but it is very hard to put a brave face on for them, i don't know how you did it even on your last day,you put that brave smile on for me and i will never forget the way you took my hand and turned to me and said that you loved me and the children and then you said that you had enough, and i just thought it was all in your head and i said don't be soft,lets get you back to the hospice so you can rest, and when we got back you said it again, paul i really love you and the rest of the family,then you fell asleep.just to let you know julie as i said to you that night and as i say every night, i really love you and i am missing you so much,good night julie till we meet again. paul.xxxxx

The last time I saw you was in February 2008 on the train back from Liverpool with Sam. You had taken him out to the museum and it was obvious to me that you adored him and all things maternal. I asked about Cerys and you said she was beautiful, full of character and that your life was perfect. I was devastated by the news of your illness and did not know until the funeral that you had been so courageous in refusing treatment to stay lucid for the children. You were taken too soon but had 44 loving years with my favourite auntie and uncle and a solid happy life with Paul and the children you waited so long for. Some people live to 80 and never experience the warm emotion you were enveloped in. I remember you as a strong willed little girl who gave me a run for my money when I babysat you. You were cheeky and endearing as a 6 year old and was not fazed at all when I inadvertantly dropped you into a muddy hole on a building site in Digmoor in the 1970's. From how you described her, I think a little bit of you lives on in Cerys. Your family did you proud at your funeral with much love and a quiet dignity that was heartbreaking to behold. You were so brave and inspirational, no longer the little girl but a strong detemined woman. I am proud to be your cousin. Night Night. Jean, Katy and Joe xxx